I dont know what to say, i just miss you so badly.

Hey. i'm now blogging and crying at the same time.

And i don't know what shud i blog. Cos the main reason i'm blogging rite now is because i don't have anyone to talk to. i'm so frustrated with all shitty stuffs that appeared the last few days.

i'm tired being scolded when i don't even speak a word. i'm tired being underestimated with people i barely recognize. i'm tired missing him. i'm tired waiting for his calls or even messages for the last 3 days. I miss him badly. I really do.

And those were the reasons why am i crying. I really feel lonely. He was supposed to take better care of me compared to anyone else. But that didn't happen. Sob..i miss him so much.

There's a quote saying that 'when a girl says i miss you, that means she's hurting inside.' And that's awesomely true. Everytime i say i miss you to him, my heart aches a bit or even worse, i cry and mourne.

Sigh..if i'm being asked a question asking 'what is one thing you wanna do rite now?' I will certainly say that 'i wanna hear his voice and his laugh. I miss him so much and it hurts.'

If you see my condition by your own eyes rite now, u wud probably symphatyze my looks. I looked very pale. My eyes are swollen. I cud barely speak properly. And many more syndrome i'm having now. God..cud U please tell him that i miss him so much? i've really had enough crying. Four days. Isn't it enough?

I don't know what else to say. My heart hurts badly. I love him so much but it seems that he doesn't. Everytime i look at him, the thoughts running inside my brain are, 'he's only a dream to me. A sweet dream. And we all know that we cudnt take dreams for our real life. He's too perfect to be loved by me, an ordinary girl. But i love him so much that it hurts.'

Believe me or not, those words have always been spinning around my head EVERYTIME i see him. When i say everytime, it means really everytime.

Yeah i love him. I really really do. I wud do anything for him. As long as he's happy. I swear to everything.

I hope you read this. I loveyou and I miss you so much. i'm sorry if i hurt you before, i didn't mean to do it. Sorry T.T

My head spins. It hurts. Gonna take a rest now. Maybe a little bit more of crying will help release my sadness. I love you boy. And i miss you badly. Goodnight.

Smoochies,
Agatha Tara