When I Say I Love You, I've Always Meant It.

Hi. There. How. Are . You.
I'm not fine. And you?
Yeah. I hate today. I'm tired being the center of anger of everybody else. It's like, oh man, go solve your problem yourself! Why does it seem that i'm the one who's always wrong?

Hey, anyone reading this, i just wanna share my feelings. My guilt. My anger. My ego. It's just...i'm really tired being trapped on this kind of situation without knowing when would this thing entirely stop.

Before, no one had ever understand me well. No one even wanted to know what am i feeling. Till he came. He's like my saviour protecting me from heart attack and cancer (lol that was a joke). Yeah. He supports me in anything i do. He's the only one i talked with and cried with. He strived so hard to help me control my anger. He's like everything for me.

But my feelings for him won't go anywhere further. Not because i don't want it, but because i can't. I even can't tell you who he is. One thing i know that i need him. So much that it hurts sometimes :'(
Too much tears i've had these past years. i'm starting to give up but he's always there encouraging me not to.

Aaaaaaaargghhh. I wanna scream. Really wanna. I hate being here with all my problems. I hate burying all my feelings for him without anyone knowing it except himself. I hate being stucked in this kind of environment. I wanna turn back time. I wanna be happy. I don't wanna waste tears everyday of my life. I.....i'm depressed, if you all wanna know the truth.

You shocked? I'm not surprised. Cos in front of you all-i know what you're thinking-i acted normally. I smiled. I laughed. I sang happy songs. But that's in front of ppl. Back there, i'm crying. I really cried.

Ppl. Pray for me. Pray that i won't suffer more than this. Those are more than enough :'(

That's all. Sorry if my words seemed 'too hyperbolic'. I just wanna share what i was burying inside my heart all along till this time.

But i ♥ you ppl, no matter what. And you. You know who you are :) i just want you to know that i need you in my life. I really do. (Haha you may not be reading this though.)

Bye. My fingers ache. Haha.

Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
(Pray for me, ppl) :(