hello.
i'm supposed to be happy at this moment, but in fact, i'm not :(
yes. too many complicated things are going on at the same time.
however, it makes my head experiencing a total headache.
going to Singapore less than a day for a holiday trip with my family for not more than a week.
gotta shop much there as my friend told me that Singapore is on its big sale right now :)
ha-ha i know. i'm a MASSIVE spender :p
sorry mum, your spoiled daughter is on her passion to shop!
missing him much at this very moment :(
haven't met him for a really long time and it is unhealthy for me why?
because i daydream a lot beacuse of it :'(
less than three days till new year and i still haven't made any new year resolution for myself.
me: so lazy. darn lazy i knew it.
okay so now let's start with those typical resolutions first.
1. better me.
2. better communication skills with everyone out there.
3. better skill in controlling my anger and madness.
4. new life, a better one.
there are also some detailed resolutions i'm gonna make.
1. i want to pass IGCSE exams with straight As. lol. this one seems so naive, though :p
2. i want my friends to get along with me better so that no fight will take place among us.
3. the most important one is i want him to be by my side as long as possible. as long as the time separates us :)
well i think those are the complete overview of my resolutions.
what are yours, dear? :)
Smooches,
Agatha Tara
december, i am MADLY in love!
OHMYFREAKINGFAIRIES!
yesterday was the day for the charity night of the Maria Monique Foundation in cooperation with Central School.
we were performing a traditional dance, some choir and singing, and also ensemble / orchestra.
so yes, we have been preparing for last night for about approximately three months of hard work and it turned out superb!
indeed, i have been missing all of our togetherness yesterday :(
one day felt terribly short but i was really amazed by the show especially the KG-2 performance (Ella May <3<3) and the piano playing of Raymond KK and Jojo. they played so well in the song The Flight of the Bumblebee, which actually, one of my favorite songs to be played by a pianist :)
great job everyone! and i love being with all of you yesterday :)
:D:D
i am now really really happy despite the fact that I've been missing him real bad :(
sigh God, if only i could wish for a thing it surely would be a chance of meeting him right now.
but well, it doesn't really matter because i could call him anytime which might slightly help reducing my awkward feeling ><
i love you so much and that's all the reason i've got to be with you.
I LOVE DECEMBER SO MUCH i hope that this passion could last forever :)
i love you, all my great friends :) i wish i could stay in Central little longer.
surely going to miss all of you when i leave six months from now.
being with all of you has reached the top level of my wants' hierarchy right now, unintentionally.
Love love hugs hugs,
Agatha Tara :)
Me Likey.
A song that really makes me falling in love over and over again.
You guys should be aware of the awesome lyrics :)
You - Christian Bautista
You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.
You guys should be aware of the awesome lyrics :)
You - Christian Bautista
You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.
You pushed me up
When I’m about to give up;
You’re on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can’t help but show
You’ll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts
CHORUS:
It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.
‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me
You pushed me up
When I’m about to give up;
You’re on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can’t help but show
You’ll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts
CHORUS:
It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.
‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me.
Yeah i know this is meaningless as words can't simply describe the sound of music.
I'm quite sure that you all will be addicted at the time you listen to it :)
Sorry for the late update and i know this will not be enough for a real update as i am now doing my exam :(
I promise i will blog as soon as i finish everything :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
oh how do i miss jogjakarta trip :(
yes, don't tell. i knew it. i'm a bad blogger ><
okay, so the updates are:
1. i miss jogjakarta
2. i miss jogjakarta
3. i miss jogjakarta
yup, it's obvious. i really really really miss those times :(
here's the complete timeline.
28-30 Oct 2009 : Jogjakarta Field trip for 9-12 graders.
i thought it would be boring and cheesy at first, considering that we did not get along well with the other grades. grade ten was only grade ten, before.
but the Jogja trip changed ever single thing :)
we chatted and laughed together, playing big 2, running on the corridor, going to internet cafe, having breakfast and lunch and dinner and supper together, etc, etc, etc.
we did those TOGETHER. yes, the lack of togetherness we got before has been washed away by that trip. we now realized that we are here as Central School students as ONE :)
i love you all, greatest mates.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara :)
I've always wanted to be a singer, one day.
Hey. I made this writing for my English homework at the first place.
But i found this really important to be put on my blog.
Don't be bored reading this 400-word-essay.
Enjoy!
I’ve always wanted to be a professional singer one day. I’ve learned how to sing since I was five. A good voice and a strong musical sense are the most important requirements for a singer. Although some singers have naturally good voices, most are trained. For me singing is about performing an art that you love and knowing people want hear you sing. I, myself, have been singing stage to stage from approximately the age of seven.
Singers may advance from amateurs to highly paid professionals. I’m considering myself now as an amateur as I seldomly being paid when I sing on the stage. The career as a singer requires talent, hard work, and good career management. A professional singer generally work at night or on weekends and often practice and record on weekdays. They seldom have holidays free, because this is when they get more job offers. Some singers go on tour and have little money for hotels and food. Many work more than forty hours a week. A good website says that a high school student that is interested in a singing career should have good voice and a flair for performance. He or she should follow the academic program for voice and study drama and the arts as well. Participation in school recitals, plays and choirs are good preparation for preparing themselves to become a professional singer.
There are several ways to become a singer. Some people begin by singing in a church or with a small band. They perform wherever they can for the experience. Sometimes they are paid, other times they receive no monetary compensation. An important step in gaining exposure involves making voice recordings known as "demos" that singers can send out to record producers. Sometimes voice teachers arrange auditions for their students. Agents, who are paid a percentage of singers' earnings, help them locate jobs and auditions. Voice teachers can apply directly to schools, colleges, music conservatories, or private music schools for faculty positions.Earnings for singers vary widely. According to the Occupational Employment Statistics survey of 2004, the median salary for singers is $17.85 per hour. Popular singers can make more than $53.59 per hour, and a few wildly successful artists make much more than that. I really hope that I could reach my dream, one day, to be a professional singer in Indonesia.
This is me performing at Grand Intercon.
And this one too.
This is the backstage at Pekan Raya Jakarta, where I contibruted to sang two songs with my friends in a choir team. This is me and Dirly Idol.
And this one, Angel Idola Cilik and me.
This is me and friends with Winda Indonesian Idol.
Well, that's all i've got for now. Wish me luck.
Toodle,
Agatha Tara :)
Random Questions :)
Well yes, i got this from my friend's note on facebook. i found this interesting, so i end up filling out these questions :D
Enjoy :)
50 Things You've Never been asked...
Once you've been tagged, you have answer this and tag 10 people,
including the person who tagged you.
1. What color is your toothbrush?
= white with blue stripes
2. Name one person who made you smile today?
= my friends and him :)
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
= at school
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
= opening tweetdeck and calling
5. What is your favorite candy bar?
= any kind :) i love candies muchhh
6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
= nope
7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
= ahh i forgot
8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
= COOKIES and CREAM ! they're loveableee :)
9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
= mineral water
10. Do you like your wallet?
= somehow yeah
11. What was the last thing you ate?
= fried mushroom
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
= this week ? umm nope cos this is still monday
13. The last sporting event you watched?
= nothin as far as i remembered
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
= cheese
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
= andre
16. Ever go camping?
= yeah twice
17. Do you take vitamins daily?
= sometimes yes
18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
= nope . im a total sinner
19. Do you have a tan?
= i hope so :p
20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
= yeahhh absolutelyyy
21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
= i dont drink soda --'
22. What did your last text message say?
= lg apa taraa ?
23. What are you doing tomorrow?
= apparently im still a student so yes, im going to school tomorrow.
24. WHERE IS 24?
= Jack Bauer (???)
25. Look to your left, what do you see?
= a wall
26. What color & make is your watch?
= what do you mean by make ?
27. What do you think of when you hear the word Australia?
= a kangaroo !
28. What is your birthstone?
= sapphire is guess. but i forgot my bad
29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
= go directly in
30. What is your favourite number?
= nineeee
31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
= him
32. Any plans today?
= today's almost ended
33. How many states/provinces/countries have you lived in?
= lived in ? one.
34. Biggest annoyance right now?
= spending my precious time just for waiting my messages to be delivered. xl sucks badly
35. Last song listened to?
= do they know it's Christmas time
36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
= i used to do that when i was little but now, nope :( i cant
37. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
= yes i have
38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
= i swap shoes all the time
39. Are you jealous of anyone?
= hahah hell yeah
40. Is anyone jealous of you?
= hmm dont think so
41. Do you love anyone?
= yes i do
42. Do any of your friends have children?
= not that im aware of
43. What do you usually do during the day?
= going to school. walking eating breathing and goof-offing
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
= yep and im sorry for that
45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
= yep
46. What color is your car?
= black white and mettalic blue
47. Do you like cats?
= well i love animals. insects and snakes and worms are exceptions
48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
= yepp
49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
= six flags? never heard about it before :(
50. How did you get your worst scars?
= i fell from my scooter and i cried like hell at that time :p
Wow fifty questions weren't really that long, actually, See ya soon, reader :) Love you all.
xoxo,
Agatha Tara :)
Enjoy :)
50 Things You've Never been asked...
Once you've been tagged, you have answer this and tag 10 people,
including the person who tagged you.
1. What color is your toothbrush?
= white with blue stripes
2. Name one person who made you smile today?
= my friends and him :)
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
= at school
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
= opening tweetdeck and calling
5. What is your favorite candy bar?
= any kind :) i love candies muchhh
6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
= nope
7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
= ahh i forgot
8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
= COOKIES and CREAM ! they're loveableee :)
9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
= mineral water
10. Do you like your wallet?
= somehow yeah
11. What was the last thing you ate?
= fried mushroom
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
= this week ? umm nope cos this is still monday
13. The last sporting event you watched?
= nothin as far as i remembered
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
= cheese
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
= andre
16. Ever go camping?
= yeah twice
17. Do you take vitamins daily?
= sometimes yes
18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
= nope . im a total sinner
19. Do you have a tan?
= i hope so :p
20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
= yeahhh absolutelyyy
21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
= i dont drink soda --'
22. What did your last text message say?
= lg apa taraa ?
23. What are you doing tomorrow?
= apparently im still a student so yes, im going to school tomorrow.
24. WHERE IS 24?
= Jack Bauer (???)
25. Look to your left, what do you see?
= a wall
26. What color & make is your watch?
= what do you mean by make ?
27. What do you think of when you hear the word Australia?
= a kangaroo !
28. What is your birthstone?
= sapphire is guess. but i forgot my bad
29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
= go directly in
30. What is your favourite number?
= nineeee
31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
= him
32. Any plans today?
= today's almost ended
33. How many states/provinces/countries have you lived in?
= lived in ? one.
34. Biggest annoyance right now?
= spending my precious time just for waiting my messages to be delivered. xl sucks badly
35. Last song listened to?
= do they know it's Christmas time
36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
= i used to do that when i was little but now, nope :( i cant
37. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
= yes i have
38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
= i swap shoes all the time
39. Are you jealous of anyone?
= hahah hell yeah
40. Is anyone jealous of you?
= hmm dont think so
41. Do you love anyone?
= yes i do
42. Do any of your friends have children?
= not that im aware of
43. What do you usually do during the day?
= going to school. walking eating breathing and goof-offing
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
= yep and im sorry for that
45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
= yep
46. What color is your car?
= black white and mettalic blue
47. Do you like cats?
= well i love animals. insects and snakes and worms are exceptions
48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
= yepp
49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
= six flags? never heard about it before :(
50. How did you get your worst scars?
= i fell from my scooter and i cried like hell at that time :p
Wow fifty questions weren't really that long, actually, See ya soon, reader :) Love you all.
xoxo,
Agatha Tara :)
A Dream :)
hey bloggers. i am now back and here's the thing: i will post the story i've made by myself. yes. myself. no plagiarism, originally from the brain of mine.
so, enjoy! :D
A Dream
By: Agatha Tara Indira
Grade 10
The sun sets down slowly. Which makes Jennifer worried a lot more than before. She, in a doubtful way, is witing for the postman to come. That letter, maybe will only be two lines long. But it will change Jenni’s life forever, which is the thing she hasn’t known yet.
“Mom.. I guess I’ll go inside instead of waiting here. There’s no use for me to wait. I think I’ve lost my chance to reach my dream,” Jennifer says. “We’ll wait a few more minutes. Then if the postman doesn’t come..we can go in, and talk,” her mom replied. So they waited. And wait. Five minutes have passed. Ten. Fifteen. But neither the postman or the letter is there. Jennifer starts to cry. Her neck bends down showing clearly her disappointment. She walks towards the door and suddenly she stops. She smiled hesitantly and said to herself. “Maybe Dad was right. Paris will not be the right place for me to live.” She turns back and look straight to her mom. Her mom doesn’t hear Jennifer talked, but she knows. She can tell from Jennifer’s eyes that her daughter is truly arousing her sadness.
Few days have passed and Jennifer is starting to worry less than before. The notification letter of the Paris’s National Scholarships-which Jenni has waited for it to arrive for a really long time-in fact, wasn’t there. Jenni has nearly given herself up. For your information, Jennifer is a tenth-grader student who is hoping for the Paris’s National Scholarships for her to get. She has applied for it a month ago and done some tests and interviews. She was really sure that she could win the scholarship. From 500 people who have applied, it will be filtered to only 20 people who will attend the Paris’s National School. Her mother, Ivanca, supports her daughter to go to Paris for her extended studies. But her dad. He is the one who forbids Jenni. His name is Wesley. He doesn’t let Jenni to study abroad and Jenni knows it. Since then, Jenni has been frustratedly begging her mom not to tell her dad about the scholarship she has applied. Fortunately, her mom agreed to keep it as a secret.
The next day is Monday. Jennifer goes to school with an unwanted face. Her expression is as cold as an ice. Greeting by greeting saying “Good Morning” and a simple “Hi” are being ignored by Jenni. Everyone is wondering what has gone wrong with her. Jenni, herself, doesn’t want to communicate much with her friends. “What am I supposed to tell them if they know about my abandoned scholarship?” she thought sadly. Her dad, at the moment, is being transferred to another city by his company. So there are only Jenni and her mom at the house.
Jennifer is, indeed, not the only child in the Wesley’s family. Her younger brother, named Jonas, has died because of a chronic leukemia. Which made Jenni more oftenly feels a loneliness inside her. Jonas was the only one who could let Jenni talked freely.
The actual reason why Wesley does not want Jenni to study abroad is because Jonas’s death was really horrifying him. He was suffering from leukemia a year before his death. And the city where Jonas died is, coincidently, Paris. A place where Jenni’s dreams are. A place where Jenni terribly wanted to go. A place where maybe could change every single thing in Jenni’s life. But her dad doesn’t allow her to go. That really made Jennifer’s heart broke into pieces. Her dad-who is indeed the person that Jenni loved the most-ruined her dream in a single sentence. “I am not, and will not, allow you to go Paris. You’ve known the whys.” That was what Jennifer’s dad said to her nearly half year ago.
Jennifer walks on the left side of the road, aiming to go back to her house. It’s three at the afternoon and school has been over. She walks steadily and hoping that when she got home, the letter has been there for her to read. She prayed overwhelmingly. She really wanted to go there. The busy city with streetlights and ancient massive bulidings for her to visit. The city which could also be called a “dream” to Jennifer.
She has walked for ten minutes and there are only two blocks left until she reaches her house. She is too busy paying attention to herself as she does not realize that a metallic-blue SUV is crossing the same road as her. The car is so fast that it only lasts for about 5 second in Jenni’s sight, if she realized.
Jenni reached her home five minutes after. She was extremely shocked when she sees her dad’s car is parked outside her house. She ran inside and found out that her dad has already waited for her to come.
Jenni asked in a rush, “so you’re home? Why didn’t you tell me before? Why didn’t mom tell me about you coming home?” Her dad smiled and hugged Jenni for a few seconds. He said, “because I wanted to make it as a surprise for you, dear. I want to talk to you, so, shall we?”
Jennifer nodded and walked towards the living room followed by her dad and her mom.
They sat on a big-sized sofa and Jennifer’s dad started to talk. “I know that you’re now a grown-up girl. Not a ten-year-old any longer. Am I right?” he asked. Jenni is a little bit confused. She wasn’t expecting her dad to said that to her. But she answered, “Yes, dad. I’m now a fifteen-year-old. Not a child anymore.” Then her father said, “I trust you, dear. I have this as a surprise for you.”
When Jenni’s dad said that, he took a piece of a sealed envelope. A yellow-coloured one. Jennifer mind starts to blow. She is really shocked and amazed by what she sees at the moment. Yes. The letter from the Paris’s National Scholarship is being held by her father! She gasped and exhaled deeply. “This is for you, Jenni. You now have my permission to go to Paris and reach your dream. I love you, and I’m sorry for being ridiculous by not allowing you to go to Paris. I now you’re capable of it. Read it.”
On the paper it’s written:
CONGRATULATIONS,
You will attend the Paris National School. You are one of the luckiest 20.
Jenni gave a big grin and screamed, “I love you, Dad! I know you are the best!”, then hugged her dad and her mom.
THE END
yes. that is it!! thanks for reading and i promise i'll make a better writing than that one when i have time. ciao!
Smooch,
Agatha Tara :)
so, enjoy! :D
A Dream
By: Agatha Tara Indira
Grade 10
The sun sets down slowly. Which makes Jennifer worried a lot more than before. She, in a doubtful way, is witing for the postman to come. That letter, maybe will only be two lines long. But it will change Jenni’s life forever, which is the thing she hasn’t known yet.
“Mom.. I guess I’ll go inside instead of waiting here. There’s no use for me to wait. I think I’ve lost my chance to reach my dream,” Jennifer says. “We’ll wait a few more minutes. Then if the postman doesn’t come..we can go in, and talk,” her mom replied. So they waited. And wait. Five minutes have passed. Ten. Fifteen. But neither the postman or the letter is there. Jennifer starts to cry. Her neck bends down showing clearly her disappointment. She walks towards the door and suddenly she stops. She smiled hesitantly and said to herself. “Maybe Dad was right. Paris will not be the right place for me to live.” She turns back and look straight to her mom. Her mom doesn’t hear Jennifer talked, but she knows. She can tell from Jennifer’s eyes that her daughter is truly arousing her sadness.
Few days have passed and Jennifer is starting to worry less than before. The notification letter of the Paris’s National Scholarships-which Jenni has waited for it to arrive for a really long time-in fact, wasn’t there. Jenni has nearly given herself up. For your information, Jennifer is a tenth-grader student who is hoping for the Paris’s National Scholarships for her to get. She has applied for it a month ago and done some tests and interviews. She was really sure that she could win the scholarship. From 500 people who have applied, it will be filtered to only 20 people who will attend the Paris’s National School. Her mother, Ivanca, supports her daughter to go to Paris for her extended studies. But her dad. He is the one who forbids Jenni. His name is Wesley. He doesn’t let Jenni to study abroad and Jenni knows it. Since then, Jenni has been frustratedly begging her mom not to tell her dad about the scholarship she has applied. Fortunately, her mom agreed to keep it as a secret.
The next day is Monday. Jennifer goes to school with an unwanted face. Her expression is as cold as an ice. Greeting by greeting saying “Good Morning” and a simple “Hi” are being ignored by Jenni. Everyone is wondering what has gone wrong with her. Jenni, herself, doesn’t want to communicate much with her friends. “What am I supposed to tell them if they know about my abandoned scholarship?” she thought sadly. Her dad, at the moment, is being transferred to another city by his company. So there are only Jenni and her mom at the house.
Jennifer is, indeed, not the only child in the Wesley’s family. Her younger brother, named Jonas, has died because of a chronic leukemia. Which made Jenni more oftenly feels a loneliness inside her. Jonas was the only one who could let Jenni talked freely.
The actual reason why Wesley does not want Jenni to study abroad is because Jonas’s death was really horrifying him. He was suffering from leukemia a year before his death. And the city where Jonas died is, coincidently, Paris. A place where Jenni’s dreams are. A place where Jenni terribly wanted to go. A place where maybe could change every single thing in Jenni’s life. But her dad doesn’t allow her to go. That really made Jennifer’s heart broke into pieces. Her dad-who is indeed the person that Jenni loved the most-ruined her dream in a single sentence. “I am not, and will not, allow you to go Paris. You’ve known the whys.” That was what Jennifer’s dad said to her nearly half year ago.
Jennifer walks on the left side of the road, aiming to go back to her house. It’s three at the afternoon and school has been over. She walks steadily and hoping that when she got home, the letter has been there for her to read. She prayed overwhelmingly. She really wanted to go there. The busy city with streetlights and ancient massive bulidings for her to visit. The city which could also be called a “dream” to Jennifer.
She has walked for ten minutes and there are only two blocks left until she reaches her house. She is too busy paying attention to herself as she does not realize that a metallic-blue SUV is crossing the same road as her. The car is so fast that it only lasts for about 5 second in Jenni’s sight, if she realized.
Jenni reached her home five minutes after. She was extremely shocked when she sees her dad’s car is parked outside her house. She ran inside and found out that her dad has already waited for her to come.
Jenni asked in a rush, “so you’re home? Why didn’t you tell me before? Why didn’t mom tell me about you coming home?” Her dad smiled and hugged Jenni for a few seconds. He said, “because I wanted to make it as a surprise for you, dear. I want to talk to you, so, shall we?”
Jennifer nodded and walked towards the living room followed by her dad and her mom.
They sat on a big-sized sofa and Jennifer’s dad started to talk. “I know that you’re now a grown-up girl. Not a ten-year-old any longer. Am I right?” he asked. Jenni is a little bit confused. She wasn’t expecting her dad to said that to her. But she answered, “Yes, dad. I’m now a fifteen-year-old. Not a child anymore.” Then her father said, “I trust you, dear. I have this as a surprise for you.”
When Jenni’s dad said that, he took a piece of a sealed envelope. A yellow-coloured one. Jennifer mind starts to blow. She is really shocked and amazed by what she sees at the moment. Yes. The letter from the Paris’s National Scholarship is being held by her father! She gasped and exhaled deeply. “This is for you, Jenni. You now have my permission to go to Paris and reach your dream. I love you, and I’m sorry for being ridiculous by not allowing you to go to Paris. I now you’re capable of it. Read it.”
On the paper it’s written:
CONGRATULATIONS,
You will attend the Paris National School. You are one of the luckiest 20.
Jenni gave a big grin and screamed, “I love you, Dad! I know you are the best!”, then hugged her dad and her mom.
THE END
yes. that is it!! thanks for reading and i promise i'll make a better writing than that one when i have time. ciao!
Smooch,
Agatha Tara :)
it's been a while since my last post :)
Happy Idul Fitri 1430H bloggers! (Well isn't it a nice start? :D)
Yup. Today is officially Hari Raya Lebaran being celebrated by our nation Indonesia. As you can see, today is the most miraculous day i've seen about Jakarta.
Yup, simple guess. Jakarta has no traffic at all today! Makes me wonder how many Indonesians are, precisely, Moslems? Is it more than 80 percent of the whole population? I think it is.
About myself, well there isn't much enough to tell. I had the best days these past weeks and i'm uber happy about it. The 14th of September was my birthday and it was lovely. Starting from those birthday wishes, the presents, my feelings about being added one more year to my life, and sum of those will be one word. SUPERB.
I feel so much grateful about it.
And for all you questioning me how does it feel to turn into a fifteen? I honestly replied, "there's nothing so special about it. Because what so special is i'm given a chance to survive my life and the blessings, those ARE what i called, SPECIAL.
And for the other who's been asking about presents, okay, i'll write.
This/ these is/ are what i got from:
My parents: Yup. A new smartphone. Blackberry 9000 made my birthday marvellous :p no offense.
My lovely girl-friends: A ripcurl top and a short pink pants. Love them :)
My cousin: A pair of earrings. A really cute one :D
And there's one more but i can't tell you, sorry *wink* ;)
Obviously, those moments made me happy. And i think that's all for now. Sorry for being a bad blogger in a state of not writing anything for a quite long time ;)
I'll blog when i have more to say. Bye readers :) Love you all.
Yup. Today is officially Hari Raya Lebaran being celebrated by our nation Indonesia. As you can see, today is the most miraculous day i've seen about Jakarta.
Yup, simple guess. Jakarta has no traffic at all today! Makes me wonder how many Indonesians are, precisely, Moslems? Is it more than 80 percent of the whole population? I think it is.
About myself, well there isn't much enough to tell. I had the best days these past weeks and i'm uber happy about it. The 14th of September was my birthday and it was lovely. Starting from those birthday wishes, the presents, my feelings about being added one more year to my life, and sum of those will be one word. SUPERB.
I feel so much grateful about it.
And for all you questioning me how does it feel to turn into a fifteen? I honestly replied, "there's nothing so special about it. Because what so special is i'm given a chance to survive my life and the blessings, those ARE what i called, SPECIAL.
And for the other who's been asking about presents, okay, i'll write.
This/ these is/ are what i got from:
My parents: Yup. A new smartphone. Blackberry 9000 made my birthday marvellous :p no offense.
My lovely girl-friends: A ripcurl top and a short pink pants. Love them :)
My cousin: A pair of earrings. A really cute one :D
And there's one more but i can't tell you, sorry *wink* ;)
Obviously, those moments made me happy. And i think that's all for now. Sorry for being a bad blogger in a state of not writing anything for a quite long time ;)
I'll blog when i have more to say. Bye readers :) Love you all.
Cheer Me Up :(
Hi. I don't wanna make a bad impression of my start, but still, i'm not in a good mood to be cheesy.
i'm broken :( and that's why. Okay. Here's the thing. Maybe i'm not the best girl you could find. I easily break down. i'm forgetful. I do shameful things all the entire time. Even i could imagine myself being scolded by everybody because of my clumsiness. In conclusion, i'm not really a good girl.
And you've KNOWN that. But you can't accept that. I know. i've always known.
I wonder why do we fight too often. I wonder what will happen to both of us later tomorrow. Cos you're not mine, and i'm OFFICIALLY not yours. So who knows when will you leave me with this lovedust buried inside me? A love created incredibly just for you? Yes you. Nothing for others. Can you just realize it? That i, Agatha Tara Indira-a girl who shouted her 'sumpah serapah' thingy few years ago, for whom had been hurt by her bf of his gf, a girl who DID NOT believe in any of love game-now has been weakened by your love? Can you please just...oh. I ran out of words.
it's just i don't know why do i always look so effing dumb in front of you. I did stupid things. I spoke stupid words. I acted so much worse that i could've ever imagined i would. I...i'm too weak in front of you. That's why i've shown you all of my weaknesses in front of you (which i thought you would understand me and said 'it's okay', but the fact you didn't).
Hey :) You know what? Everytime when you were angry to me, i've always been feeling so much guilty. You don't know what does it feel when i cried because i regretted what i've done so far. Cos from what i know, it's me who has always been wrong. No,no, i'm not saying that you told me that i'm wrong. It's me. i'm the one who felt it. That i'm a badass. A girl who's making your life miserable with all my grumpy characters.
But here. One thing. I really strived hard to change. And it seemed that you didn't care. Correct me if i'm wrong :( but i've always been feeling so bad that you actually did not realize what was changing day by day. Even me, i realize that those changes happened inside me. Maybe not so much different, but there ARE changes :( sigh. I don't know what to say. It's just i love you and i hope you'll realize it. Someday. That you were my first love. And forever will be my first love. Even though that later i might be marrying someone else, it's you who taught me the meaning of true love.
Always, and forever. You're the first one in my heart. Forever will be my first love
I love you, and i'm sorry for being a bad girl recently.
Sorry,
Agatha Tara ♥
i'm broken :( and that's why. Okay. Here's the thing. Maybe i'm not the best girl you could find. I easily break down. i'm forgetful. I do shameful things all the entire time. Even i could imagine myself being scolded by everybody because of my clumsiness. In conclusion, i'm not really a good girl.
And you've KNOWN that. But you can't accept that. I know. i've always known.
I wonder why do we fight too often. I wonder what will happen to both of us later tomorrow. Cos you're not mine, and i'm OFFICIALLY not yours. So who knows when will you leave me with this lovedust buried inside me? A love created incredibly just for you? Yes you. Nothing for others. Can you just realize it? That i, Agatha Tara Indira-a girl who shouted her 'sumpah serapah' thingy few years ago, for whom had been hurt by her bf of his gf, a girl who DID NOT believe in any of love game-now has been weakened by your love? Can you please just...oh. I ran out of words.
it's just i don't know why do i always look so effing dumb in front of you. I did stupid things. I spoke stupid words. I acted so much worse that i could've ever imagined i would. I...i'm too weak in front of you. That's why i've shown you all of my weaknesses in front of you (which i thought you would understand me and said 'it's okay', but the fact you didn't).
Hey :) You know what? Everytime when you were angry to me, i've always been feeling so much guilty. You don't know what does it feel when i cried because i regretted what i've done so far. Cos from what i know, it's me who has always been wrong. No,no, i'm not saying that you told me that i'm wrong. It's me. i'm the one who felt it. That i'm a badass. A girl who's making your life miserable with all my grumpy characters.
But here. One thing. I really strived hard to change. And it seemed that you didn't care. Correct me if i'm wrong :( but i've always been feeling so bad that you actually did not realize what was changing day by day. Even me, i realize that those changes happened inside me. Maybe not so much different, but there ARE changes :( sigh. I don't know what to say. It's just i love you and i hope you'll realize it. Someday. That you were my first love. And forever will be my first love. Even though that later i might be marrying someone else, it's you who taught me the meaning of true love.
Always, and forever. You're the first one in my heart. Forever will be my first love
I love you, and i'm sorry for being a bad girl recently.
Sorry,
Agatha Tara ♥
Sum Up!
Hi again bloggers.
Hmm. I haven't written anything since when? A week ago? Haha. I forgot. But i've been really busy, sorry. And that's also why i wanna write something here :) cos sharing is always good :)
So, yeah. Here's the thing. i've been busy preparing myself for supporting RCTI's 20th birthday. I was being contacted by one of the PCMS teacher, Fenny. So she said that i've been chosen to be one of the lucky 30 person representing the backing choir of some singers. And, in fact, it came out superb! :D
So this choir team, a team made up of 30 people, is called Xpresso Choir. We're subjected to be the backing choir of Gita Gutawa, Rini, Opick, and some Idola Cilik kids. Handling two piece of songs, 'One Day in Your Life' and 'Maha Melihat', we were being pushed so hard to meet the expectation of the audiences.
From finding the outfits, learning stage blocking, waiting for our turn endlessly, until the fact that the outfits we've bought didn't meet the qualification. Too short, too 'see-through', or too 'open' in some areas. So, instead, we exchanged some of our outfits to be worn by others. Rawr. I almost exploded at the time. It's like, what the heck? I spent a million to purchase the outfits then you say what? Exchange? Grr.
But then they said, 'we're all representing the name of RCTI. What will the audience say if they see our outfits? We're going to sing a religious piece of song, and you all wearing clothes like those?' Dang. They won. We kept in silence.
But from there I learned something. Oh, not only me. Us. We learned something. We learned that we can't keep our egoism. We were going to be watched by more than a million people around Indonesia. We have to look, hmm, what'll be the word? Decent? Yeah. Decent. We have to look decent.
Okay. Done melancholy thingy. Continue the story. Then yea, we performed quite well :) and i'm happy by the fact that i got so many lessons from the RCTI show. I talked to some singers, like Winda Idol (the one plays in OB, Saschya) and Rian d'Masiv (vocalist). They were marvellous. They're role models, both beautiful (in different meanings), and both reached the level of high-popularity. But they're so humble to strangers. Even to me.
So, to sum up. i'm really looking forward for some shows like that to attend :) tiring, but in the end, to sum up, one word. TREMENDOUS. Yeah. Massively influential.
Done. That's all :) bye bye readers. Sorry for some grammatical errors etc. i'm still learning to write a piece of writing in fully English language. Toodle!
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Ps: kalo lue semua nganggep Limbad emang ga pernah ngomong. Salah besar! Kemaren itu di backstage. Nyokap gw ngobrol lama sama Limbad. End of story.
Hmm. I haven't written anything since when? A week ago? Haha. I forgot. But i've been really busy, sorry. And that's also why i wanna write something here :) cos sharing is always good :)
So, yeah. Here's the thing. i've been busy preparing myself for supporting RCTI's 20th birthday. I was being contacted by one of the PCMS teacher, Fenny. So she said that i've been chosen to be one of the lucky 30 person representing the backing choir of some singers. And, in fact, it came out superb! :D
So this choir team, a team made up of 30 people, is called Xpresso Choir. We're subjected to be the backing choir of Gita Gutawa, Rini, Opick, and some Idola Cilik kids. Handling two piece of songs, 'One Day in Your Life' and 'Maha Melihat', we were being pushed so hard to meet the expectation of the audiences.
From finding the outfits, learning stage blocking, waiting for our turn endlessly, until the fact that the outfits we've bought didn't meet the qualification. Too short, too 'see-through', or too 'open' in some areas. So, instead, we exchanged some of our outfits to be worn by others. Rawr. I almost exploded at the time. It's like, what the heck? I spent a million to purchase the outfits then you say what? Exchange? Grr.
But then they said, 'we're all representing the name of RCTI. What will the audience say if they see our outfits? We're going to sing a religious piece of song, and you all wearing clothes like those?' Dang. They won. We kept in silence.
But from there I learned something. Oh, not only me. Us. We learned something. We learned that we can't keep our egoism. We were going to be watched by more than a million people around Indonesia. We have to look, hmm, what'll be the word? Decent? Yeah. Decent. We have to look decent.
Okay. Done melancholy thingy. Continue the story. Then yea, we performed quite well :) and i'm happy by the fact that i got so many lessons from the RCTI show. I talked to some singers, like Winda Idol (the one plays in OB, Saschya) and Rian d'Masiv (vocalist). They were marvellous. They're role models, both beautiful (in different meanings), and both reached the level of high-popularity. But they're so humble to strangers. Even to me.
So, to sum up. i'm really looking forward for some shows like that to attend :) tiring, but in the end, to sum up, one word. TREMENDOUS. Yeah. Massively influential.
Done. That's all :) bye bye readers. Sorry for some grammatical errors etc. i'm still learning to write a piece of writing in fully English language. Toodle!
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Ps: kalo lue semua nganggep Limbad emang ga pernah ngomong. Salah besar! Kemaren itu di backstage. Nyokap gw ngobrol lama sama Limbad. End of story.
Me as the new Student President! Yay!
Hellooooo :):)
Simple guess. I won the election! Horaayy! Anddd i got more than fifty percent of the total vote. Superb isn't it? Yay yay yay. So that means. I will have a right to participate having opinions on some important decisions that are going to take place in the school :):)
i'm happy. It's obvious, isn't it? And i thank Jennifer, too, as my Vice now, who had been working endlessly making bookmarks and speech and programmes and vision and mission and EVERYTHING! Oh yeah and thankssss to Coco, Ivanca, Cynthia, Reynaldo, and Ryan for helping us too :D
Okay done with the Election thingy :D
So. First, i'm exhausted. Too many things to be done within this week. I need to make a list of events with their details to give to Mr Wayne, i have to attend the badminton competition at Ipeka Tomang tomorrow, i have to study for the Kumon Test, and i really need to re-schedule all my activities because it's getting chaotic. Graaaaah. I need my sleeping pills to cause me drowsiness so that i could sleep for like a week? Haha. I'll be dead by then. Consuming sleeping pills for a dosage of one week simply will make you sleep and you wouldn't wake up anymore. And that means? Die! Yeah! Hahaha. Sorry for being ridiculous :D
Yeah..i think that's all for now. I have nothing else on my mind to blog. Cos aside of those messed up schedule, things went well these past days :D including him (♥) no fights, no scolds, no nonsense talks, nothing! Haha. Love youuu! *blush*
Sooo. I guess i gotta stop right here. Wanna grab some snacks downstairs. Bye bye readers! Catch y'all soon! :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Simple guess. I won the election! Horaayy! Anddd i got more than fifty percent of the total vote. Superb isn't it? Yay yay yay. So that means. I will have a right to participate having opinions on some important decisions that are going to take place in the school :):)
i'm happy. It's obvious, isn't it? And i thank Jennifer, too, as my Vice now, who had been working endlessly making bookmarks and speech and programmes and vision and mission and EVERYTHING! Oh yeah and thankssss to Coco, Ivanca, Cynthia, Reynaldo, and Ryan for helping us too :D
Okay done with the Election thingy :D
So. First, i'm exhausted. Too many things to be done within this week. I need to make a list of events with their details to give to Mr Wayne, i have to attend the badminton competition at Ipeka Tomang tomorrow, i have to study for the Kumon Test, and i really need to re-schedule all my activities because it's getting chaotic. Graaaaah. I need my sleeping pills to cause me drowsiness so that i could sleep for like a week? Haha. I'll be dead by then. Consuming sleeping pills for a dosage of one week simply will make you sleep and you wouldn't wake up anymore. And that means? Die! Yeah! Hahaha. Sorry for being ridiculous :D
Yeah..i think that's all for now. I have nothing else on my mind to blog. Cos aside of those messed up schedule, things went well these past days :D including him (♥) no fights, no scolds, no nonsense talks, nothing! Haha. Love youuu! *blush*
Sooo. I guess i gotta stop right here. Wanna grab some snacks downstairs. Bye bye readers! Catch y'all soon! :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
The Election :D
Hey bloggers. Long time no write.
Yeah i've been kinda busy the past week. Cos i've got many things to do and to be done.
First of all, Students' Election was being held today! Yeah. Today. This morning to be exact. Haha me, myself, haven't known yet which pair wins the election. Cos the final result will be announced tomorrow! Gawd. My heart beats faster ayee! :D:D
Oyaaa thanks for all my friends who voted for me and Jennifer :) i ♥ you all :):) and for those who didn't vote for me, that's okayyy. i'm not considering myself as the best, though :D
But i'm really really really curious with the final result. Haha i've imagined what it would be like when Mr Wayne announced the winner tomorrow. Yeah. Chaotic. It surely would be. Lol.
Eh why ya? I always prefer using 'would' instead of 'will' and 'could' instead of 'can'. I don't know why either. It's just a matter of fact that i'm being used to use those words i think.
Yeah i don't really have something else to blog to. What else ya? Oh oh oh oh! Am gonna being tested by Kumon Centre for the M level next week! And that means i'm gonna be a N-level-student after the test! And that also means there's only one more level to be a Kumon's Completer! Yay! :D:D
And i feel kinda guilty for one of my teachers at school :( can't tell y'all why :( sorry.
Hey hey for everyone who tweets, follow my twitter page yaa. My username is agathatara. Orrrr you can just click this link instead. www.twitter.com/agathatara
Am gonna sleep now, i think. i'm starving and my mum haven't arrived home yet :( so so so so i'm gonna save the remaining of my energy by sleeping. Have a nice day everyoneee :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Yeah i've been kinda busy the past week. Cos i've got many things to do and to be done.
First of all, Students' Election was being held today! Yeah. Today. This morning to be exact. Haha me, myself, haven't known yet which pair wins the election. Cos the final result will be announced tomorrow! Gawd. My heart beats faster ayee! :D:D
Oyaaa thanks for all my friends who voted for me and Jennifer :) i ♥ you all :):) and for those who didn't vote for me, that's okayyy. i'm not considering myself as the best, though :D
But i'm really really really curious with the final result. Haha i've imagined what it would be like when Mr Wayne announced the winner tomorrow. Yeah. Chaotic. It surely would be. Lol.
Eh why ya? I always prefer using 'would' instead of 'will' and 'could' instead of 'can'. I don't know why either. It's just a matter of fact that i'm being used to use those words i think.
Yeah i don't really have something else to blog to. What else ya? Oh oh oh oh! Am gonna being tested by Kumon Centre for the M level next week! And that means i'm gonna be a N-level-student after the test! And that also means there's only one more level to be a Kumon's Completer! Yay! :D:D
And i feel kinda guilty for one of my teachers at school :( can't tell y'all why :( sorry.
Hey hey for everyone who tweets, follow my twitter page yaa. My username is agathatara. Orrrr you can just click this link instead. www.twitter.com/agathatara
Am gonna sleep now, i think. i'm starving and my mum haven't arrived home yet :( so so so so i'm gonna save the remaining of my energy by sleeping. Have a nice day everyoneee :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
I dont know what to say, i just miss you so badly.
Hey. i'm now blogging and crying at the same time.
And i don't know what shud i blog. Cos the main reason i'm blogging rite now is because i don't have anyone to talk to. i'm so frustrated with all shitty stuffs that appeared the last few days.
i'm tired being scolded when i don't even speak a word. i'm tired being underestimated with people i barely recognize. i'm tired missing him. i'm tired waiting for his calls or even messages for the last 3 days. I miss him badly. I really do.
And those were the reasons why am i crying. I really feel lonely. He was supposed to take better care of me compared to anyone else. But that didn't happen. Sob..i miss him so much.
There's a quote saying that 'when a girl says i miss you, that means she's hurting inside.' And that's awesomely true. Everytime i say i miss you to him, my heart aches a bit or even worse, i cry and mourne.
Sigh..if i'm being asked a question asking 'what is one thing you wanna do rite now?' I will certainly say that 'i wanna hear his voice and his laugh. I miss him so much and it hurts.'
If you see my condition by your own eyes rite now, u wud probably symphatyze my looks. I looked very pale. My eyes are swollen. I cud barely speak properly. And many more syndrome i'm having now. God..cud U please tell him that i miss him so much? i've really had enough crying. Four days. Isn't it enough?
I don't know what else to say. My heart hurts badly. I love him so much but it seems that he doesn't. Everytime i look at him, the thoughts running inside my brain are, 'he's only a dream to me. A sweet dream. And we all know that we cudnt take dreams for our real life. He's too perfect to be loved by me, an ordinary girl. But i love him so much that it hurts.'
Believe me or not, those words have always been spinning around my head EVERYTIME i see him. When i say everytime, it means really everytime.
Yeah i love him. I really really do. I wud do anything for him. As long as he's happy. I swear to everything.
I hope you read this. I loveyou and I miss you so much. i'm sorry if i hurt you before, i didn't mean to do it. Sorry T.T
My head spins. It hurts. Gonna take a rest now. Maybe a little bit more of crying will help release my sadness. I love you boy. And i miss you badly. Goodnight.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
And i don't know what shud i blog. Cos the main reason i'm blogging rite now is because i don't have anyone to talk to. i'm so frustrated with all shitty stuffs that appeared the last few days.
i'm tired being scolded when i don't even speak a word. i'm tired being underestimated with people i barely recognize. i'm tired missing him. i'm tired waiting for his calls or even messages for the last 3 days. I miss him badly. I really do.
And those were the reasons why am i crying. I really feel lonely. He was supposed to take better care of me compared to anyone else. But that didn't happen. Sob..i miss him so much.
There's a quote saying that 'when a girl says i miss you, that means she's hurting inside.' And that's awesomely true. Everytime i say i miss you to him, my heart aches a bit or even worse, i cry and mourne.
Sigh..if i'm being asked a question asking 'what is one thing you wanna do rite now?' I will certainly say that 'i wanna hear his voice and his laugh. I miss him so much and it hurts.'
If you see my condition by your own eyes rite now, u wud probably symphatyze my looks. I looked very pale. My eyes are swollen. I cud barely speak properly. And many more syndrome i'm having now. God..cud U please tell him that i miss him so much? i've really had enough crying. Four days. Isn't it enough?
I don't know what else to say. My heart hurts badly. I love him so much but it seems that he doesn't. Everytime i look at him, the thoughts running inside my brain are, 'he's only a dream to me. A sweet dream. And we all know that we cudnt take dreams for our real life. He's too perfect to be loved by me, an ordinary girl. But i love him so much that it hurts.'
Believe me or not, those words have always been spinning around my head EVERYTIME i see him. When i say everytime, it means really everytime.
Yeah i love him. I really really do. I wud do anything for him. As long as he's happy. I swear to everything.
I hope you read this. I loveyou and I miss you so much. i'm sorry if i hurt you before, i didn't mean to do it. Sorry T.T
My head spins. It hurts. Gonna take a rest now. Maybe a little bit more of crying will help release my sadness. I love you boy. And i miss you badly. Goodnight.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
My heart only beats faster if it's because of you, i promise, no other cud do that.
First of all, my radio, my very very anciently old radio, multifunctional radio, my sweet lovely radio, has gone dead. What the. I obviously need someone to repair it for me soon. I'm gonna die living without my radio. Aw. Those are really unimportant for you i guess. But for me, my radio is everyting. Second everything. Cos he is my first everything. Lol.
Okay does my first paragraph shown an excitement? Or happiness? Or joy? Ur wrong. Again. Haha.
Oya before i continue to anything else, i wanna say thanks to Vera! My first routine reader of my blog. Aww. Thanks Vera!
So today u can consider me for not having a break at all. Woke up at 6.40. School at 7.30-3.00. Badminton audition 3.00-5.45. Vocal lesson 6.00-6.30. Study physics for about another one hour from
7.30-8.40. I'm really tired. And my heart. It hurts.
If you wanna know why. I'm really really extremely tired today. My energy has leaked bcos of all of those activities. I even can't raise my arms. Yeah. Both my arms :'(
Situation has forced me to use all my remaining energy which is stored inside my body. And i was expecting more from you. I know sometimes i expect too much. And too deep. But everybody needs love. Don't we? Yeah it's just..these past months i've been actually thinking continuously about these; why do you have to take good care of me when you've known that you're going to leave me? And why do i survive till dis day? Why shud i know you from that really beginning? And many more whys. And a little more amount of those thoughts, i think i'll be dead rite away.
I'm childish, i knew it. I'm spoiled, i knew it. But i don't need excessive love? I don't think i agree. Ppl need love. Sumtimes they expect more than the usual love they had received. And that's what exactly happening to me rite now. Haha. Now you've known the other side of me. The bad one. The need-more-love-and-care side.
But unnfortunately the person i expected to do that wasn't able to meet my expectation. Saya egois. Saya tau! Sumpah deh saya tau. And my main aim of writing this is to share. All people have their own ego and bad stuffs inside them. Whichhhh cud burst anytime. No wonder that rumah sakit jiwa are somehow so popular. Cos they provide better services of love and care for those mentally unhealthy ppl.
What i'm going to say yah? i just..want you to know that i love you so much that it sometimes hurts. You have to know me well. I'm a brat. A spoiled brat. Aku sangat sangat manja. Dan aku sangat sangat berusaha buat TIDAK manja. But it seems so hard. Believe me i tried. But sometimes i really need ur attention towards me.
I...I love you. And that's all i know.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
Okay does my first paragraph shown an excitement? Or happiness? Or joy? Ur wrong. Again. Haha.
Oya before i continue to anything else, i wanna say thanks to Vera! My first routine reader of my blog. Aww. Thanks Vera!
So today u can consider me for not having a break at all. Woke up at 6.40. School at 7.30-3.00. Badminton audition 3.00-5.45. Vocal lesson 6.00-6.30. Study physics for about another one hour from
7.30-8.40. I'm really tired. And my heart. It hurts.
If you wanna know why. I'm really really extremely tired today. My energy has leaked bcos of all of those activities. I even can't raise my arms. Yeah. Both my arms :'(
Situation has forced me to use all my remaining energy which is stored inside my body. And i was expecting more from you. I know sometimes i expect too much. And too deep. But everybody needs love. Don't we? Yeah it's just..these past months i've been actually thinking continuously about these; why do you have to take good care of me when you've known that you're going to leave me? And why do i survive till dis day? Why shud i know you from that really beginning? And many more whys. And a little more amount of those thoughts, i think i'll be dead rite away.
I'm childish, i knew it. I'm spoiled, i knew it. But i don't need excessive love? I don't think i agree. Ppl need love. Sumtimes they expect more than the usual love they had received. And that's what exactly happening to me rite now. Haha. Now you've known the other side of me. The bad one. The need-more-love-and-care side.
But unnfortunately the person i expected to do that wasn't able to meet my expectation. Saya egois. Saya tau! Sumpah deh saya tau. And my main aim of writing this is to share. All people have their own ego and bad stuffs inside them. Whichhhh cud burst anytime. No wonder that rumah sakit jiwa are somehow so popular. Cos they provide better services of love and care for those mentally unhealthy ppl.
What i'm going to say yah? i just..want you to know that i love you so much that it sometimes hurts. You have to know me well. I'm a brat. A spoiled brat. Aku sangat sangat manja. Dan aku sangat sangat berusaha buat TIDAK manja. But it seems so hard. Believe me i tried. But sometimes i really need ur attention towards me.
I...I love you. And that's all i know.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
00.00 a.m.'s type of frustration. can't sleep.
I know my Mickey Mouse clock has shown 5 mins to twelve. I know tomorrow is Monday. I know that it means school for tomorrow. But i don't even yawn. I'm not sleepy. So i'm going to do this kind of thing again. Yeah. Filling out quizzes. Get set..go!
Do you love you ex?
-nope
What did you last cry over?
-two days ago, i've posted the whys on my previous blog.
What's the last mistake you made?
-huh? I forgot.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?
-him
Who last slept in your bed?:
-me lah yaa of course
Were you with them?
-them who?
Where do you want to be?
-somewhere i cud have some peace.
Who do you want to be with?
-my beloved ones.
Do you honestly love your friends?
-yeah.
Who can always make you happy?
-him.
Who do you love to talk to the most?
-him. (Don't get tired of seeing my 'him' answers. Cos that's the fact.)
Who hates you?
-i dunno.
Who do you hate?
-ppl who hates me.
What are you doing right now?
-im filling you up, dodol
What are your talents?
-singing?
How often do you cry?
-lol so often
What did you do last night?
-sleep. Who didn't?
Would you ever go back out with an ex?
-no.
Have you ever used a condom?
-*angel faced* what's a condom?
Are you a virgin?
-yeah you fool :'(
Is your boyfriend/Girlfriend a virgin?
-ive no boyfriend
What's the last movie you watched?
-King if i'm not mistaken.
Ever been in true love?
-right here right now
Ever smoked?
-nope
Done drugs?
-yeah. Some panadol and mylanta. Lol.
Gotten high?
-yeah on top of Monas. Haha. No. I don't do drugs.
Ever gone running?
-ha?? Who haven't??
How much do you weigh?
-somewhere around 50?
How tall are you?
-160++
Gone skinny dipping?
-what the heaven is that.
Gone streaking?
-i feel like i'm having bad english. Aw.
Played strip poker?
-not that i'm aware of.
Given a lap dance?
-aww nope
Made-out?
-haha nope.
Rolled on the ground w/ the opposite sex?
-wow wow these questions are getting too far
Bungie Jumped?:
-belum. Takut.
Sang Kareokee?
-yeah.
Been wet with your clothes on?
-yeah.
Seen the opposite sex naked?
-of course
Made fun of a fat person?
-*confessed* almost always
Laughed at someone?
-aduuuhh pertanyaan dodol.
Looked at someone funny?
-more and more dodol questions.
Have you had "the talk" with your parents?
-uhm no not really
Been touched by the same sex?
-touched where? Ya iyalah and gimme exact word please.
Ever been Horney?
-wrong spelling ato emang gw yg dodol? Bukannya horny yah? Yeah i had.
Looked at porn?
-haha aww
Own any thongs?
-nope
Touched a genital of the other sex?
-sering pas mandiin ade gw dulu *giggles*
Thought about sex?
-yeah
Had a "dirty" dream?
-im not those ppl who remembered their dreams.
Favorite animal?
-anything stuffed. Rabbit perhaps?
Least favorite animal?
-yg melata dan terbang. Birds are exceptions.
Most missed Memory?:
-a year ago.
Dan horay. Saya masih belum ngantuk. Gawat nih.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Do you love you ex?
-nope
What did you last cry over?
-two days ago, i've posted the whys on my previous blog.
What's the last mistake you made?
-huh? I forgot.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?
-him
Who last slept in your bed?:
-me lah yaa of course
Were you with them?
-them who?
Where do you want to be?
-somewhere i cud have some peace.
Who do you want to be with?
-my beloved ones.
Do you honestly love your friends?
-yeah.
Who can always make you happy?
-him.
Who do you love to talk to the most?
-him. (Don't get tired of seeing my 'him' answers. Cos that's the fact.)
Who hates you?
-i dunno.
Who do you hate?
-ppl who hates me.
What are you doing right now?
-im filling you up, dodol
What are your talents?
-singing?
How often do you cry?
-lol so often
What did you do last night?
-sleep. Who didn't?
Would you ever go back out with an ex?
-no.
Have you ever used a condom?
-*angel faced* what's a condom?
Are you a virgin?
-yeah you fool :'(
Is your boyfriend/Girlfriend a virgin?
-ive no boyfriend
What's the last movie you watched?
-King if i'm not mistaken.
Ever been in true love?
-right here right now
Ever smoked?
-nope
Done drugs?
-yeah. Some panadol and mylanta. Lol.
Gotten high?
-yeah on top of Monas. Haha. No. I don't do drugs.
Ever gone running?
-ha?? Who haven't??
How much do you weigh?
-somewhere around 50?
How tall are you?
-160++
Gone skinny dipping?
-what the heaven is that.
Gone streaking?
-i feel like i'm having bad english. Aw.
Played strip poker?
-not that i'm aware of.
Given a lap dance?
-aww nope
Made-out?
-haha nope.
Rolled on the ground w/ the opposite sex?
-wow wow these questions are getting too far
Bungie Jumped?:
-belum. Takut.
Sang Kareokee?
-yeah.
Been wet with your clothes on?
-yeah.
Seen the opposite sex naked?
-of course
Made fun of a fat person?
-*confessed* almost always
Laughed at someone?
-aduuuhh pertanyaan dodol.
Looked at someone funny?
-more and more dodol questions.
Have you had "the talk" with your parents?
-uhm no not really
Been touched by the same sex?
-touched where? Ya iyalah and gimme exact word please.
Ever been Horney?
-wrong spelling ato emang gw yg dodol? Bukannya horny yah? Yeah i had.
Looked at porn?
-haha aww
Own any thongs?
-nope
Touched a genital of the other sex?
-sering pas mandiin ade gw dulu *giggles*
Thought about sex?
-yeah
Had a "dirty" dream?
-im not those ppl who remembered their dreams.
Favorite animal?
-anything stuffed. Rabbit perhaps?
Least favorite animal?
-yg melata dan terbang. Birds are exceptions.
Most missed Memory?:
-a year ago.
Dan horay. Saya masih belum ngantuk. Gawat nih.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Good news were being accompanied by some bad news.
Aww. Yesterday and the day before, weren't good. I've been mourning like crazy. Ask why? Cos my ego won. My bad thoughts were all around my brain. I can't even think clearly. Gila cengeng banget yah gw. Yesterday night i've been crying the whole nite bcos of nothing. Umm not really nothing, i ain't a freak who cried and mourned bcos of nothing.
I was just being childish. I just wanted to let out all my disagreements and heartache. Oh God typing all these stuffs makes me feel more like a crybaby. Haha. Why did i have to cry from 2a.m till 4a.m? Did i hurt myself more by then? Aww :(
Okay done crying talking. Let's move on to today's stories. So yeah. I woke up at 8. Such a miracle. I've never woke up at 8. The greatest was 9.15. Never woke up before that on holidays. Then on 8.30 i woke him up by calling. Then i went down searcing for food and found out that there were no food at all -_- so i asked my helper to buy some bread for the sake of my intestines.
Then i rushed taking my bath then went straight to Kumon Centre. I spent one hour there doing practice for my M level test. GAWD THE QUESTIONS WERE ALIENS-MADE. I CAN'T EVEN SOLVE ONE OF THEM. But then good thing came. Haha i won't tell you what it was. And I heard rumors saying that Emma Watson was dead. Is that true? Cos i don't believe any of it. It's ridiculous. I mean..why did ppl spread fake rumors? and the rumors they were spreding weren't a good one. Faking about a person's life and death are totally massively sinful. What were thay thinking when they started to spread those rumors?
Menyedihkan memang generasi jaman sekarang. Bertindaklah dengan hati, please.
So those were today's. Catch y'all soon. Gotta go for bath. Tha tha.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
I was just being childish. I just wanted to let out all my disagreements and heartache. Oh God typing all these stuffs makes me feel more like a crybaby. Haha. Why did i have to cry from 2a.m till 4a.m? Did i hurt myself more by then? Aww :(
Okay done crying talking. Let's move on to today's stories. So yeah. I woke up at 8. Such a miracle. I've never woke up at 8. The greatest was 9.15. Never woke up before that on holidays. Then on 8.30 i woke him up by calling. Then i went down searcing for food and found out that there were no food at all -_- so i asked my helper to buy some bread for the sake of my intestines.
Then i rushed taking my bath then went straight to Kumon Centre. I spent one hour there doing practice for my M level test. GAWD THE QUESTIONS WERE ALIENS-MADE. I CAN'T EVEN SOLVE ONE OF THEM. But then good thing came. Haha i won't tell you what it was. And I heard rumors saying that Emma Watson was dead. Is that true? Cos i don't believe any of it. It's ridiculous. I mean..why did ppl spread fake rumors? and the rumors they were spreding weren't a good one. Faking about a person's life and death are totally massively sinful. What were thay thinking when they started to spread those rumors?
Menyedihkan memang generasi jaman sekarang. Bertindaklah dengan hati, please.
So those were today's. Catch y'all soon. Gotta go for bath. Tha tha.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
When I Say I Love You, I've Always Meant It.
Hi. There. How. Are . You.
I'm not fine. And you?
Yeah. I hate today. I'm tired being the center of anger of everybody else. It's like, oh man, go solve your problem yourself! Why does it seem that i'm the one who's always wrong?
Hey, anyone reading this, i just wanna share my feelings. My guilt. My anger. My ego. It's just...i'm really tired being trapped on this kind of situation without knowing when would this thing entirely stop.
Before, no one had ever understand me well. No one even wanted to know what am i feeling. Till he came. He's like my saviour protecting me from heart attack and cancer (lol that was a joke). Yeah. He supports me in anything i do. He's the only one i talked with and cried with. He strived so hard to help me control my anger. He's like everything for me.
But my feelings for him won't go anywhere further. Not because i don't want it, but because i can't. I even can't tell you who he is. One thing i know that i need him. So much that it hurts sometimes :'(
Too much tears i've had these past years. i'm starting to give up but he's always there encouraging me not to.
Aaaaaaaargghhh. I wanna scream. Really wanna. I hate being here with all my problems. I hate burying all my feelings for him without anyone knowing it except himself. I hate being stucked in this kind of environment. I wanna turn back time. I wanna be happy. I don't wanna waste tears everyday of my life. I.....i'm depressed, if you all wanna know the truth.
You shocked? I'm not surprised. Cos in front of you all-i know what you're thinking-i acted normally. I smiled. I laughed. I sang happy songs. But that's in front of ppl. Back there, i'm crying. I really cried.
Ppl. Pray for me. Pray that i won't suffer more than this. Those are more than enough :'(
That's all. Sorry if my words seemed 'too hyperbolic'. I just wanna share what i was burying inside my heart all along till this time.
But i ♥ you ppl, no matter what. And you. You know who you are :) i just want you to know that i need you in my life. I really do. (Haha you may not be reading this though.)
Bye. My fingers ache. Haha.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
(Pray for me, ppl) :(
I'm not fine. And you?
Yeah. I hate today. I'm tired being the center of anger of everybody else. It's like, oh man, go solve your problem yourself! Why does it seem that i'm the one who's always wrong?
Hey, anyone reading this, i just wanna share my feelings. My guilt. My anger. My ego. It's just...i'm really tired being trapped on this kind of situation without knowing when would this thing entirely stop.
Before, no one had ever understand me well. No one even wanted to know what am i feeling. Till he came. He's like my saviour protecting me from heart attack and cancer (lol that was a joke). Yeah. He supports me in anything i do. He's the only one i talked with and cried with. He strived so hard to help me control my anger. He's like everything for me.
But my feelings for him won't go anywhere further. Not because i don't want it, but because i can't. I even can't tell you who he is. One thing i know that i need him. So much that it hurts sometimes :'(
Too much tears i've had these past years. i'm starting to give up but he's always there encouraging me not to.
Aaaaaaaargghhh. I wanna scream. Really wanna. I hate being here with all my problems. I hate burying all my feelings for him without anyone knowing it except himself. I hate being stucked in this kind of environment. I wanna turn back time. I wanna be happy. I don't wanna waste tears everyday of my life. I.....i'm depressed, if you all wanna know the truth.
You shocked? I'm not surprised. Cos in front of you all-i know what you're thinking-i acted normally. I smiled. I laughed. I sang happy songs. But that's in front of ppl. Back there, i'm crying. I really cried.
Ppl. Pray for me. Pray that i won't suffer more than this. Those are more than enough :'(
That's all. Sorry if my words seemed 'too hyperbolic'. I just wanna share what i was burying inside my heart all along till this time.
But i ♥ you ppl, no matter what. And you. You know who you are :) i just want you to know that i need you in my life. I really do. (Haha you may not be reading this though.)
Bye. My fingers ache. Haha.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
(Pray for me, ppl) :(
Hell Sickness.
Morning readers. Despite the fact that you might not be reading this in the morning.
Okay. Soo. First thing first. I'm sick :( It started three days ago when my throat feels like there were nails inside and my voice began to sound like some kind of rat. Then yesterday suddenly my body temperature rises and my entire body feels like collapsing. Believe me, that sucks.
Thennn i started panicking around and my mom told me to meet a doctor and I said okay.
After one-and-a-half-hour-waited-endlessly, i went in the doctor's room and bla bla bla. He said that i caught some kind of 'radang tenggorokan' thingy and that's why my body temperature went high. Sob sob. I hate being sick :'(
Now, here I am, on my bed, had no power to wake myself up. And i miss him. So the equation is, sick + missing him = paralyzed. Can't do anything and won't be able to do anything and don't wanna do anything.
'I wanna be the one to hold you tight, the one loves you tenderly anytime, the one stays in your heart and the girl you say 'i love you' to at the right moment.'
Haha. I miss him. Stupid quote isn't it? Yeah i made it myself.
Gonna take some medicine shortly. Tha tha readers. Wish me well soon. I really hate this kind of sickness.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
Okay. Soo. First thing first. I'm sick :( It started three days ago when my throat feels like there were nails inside and my voice began to sound like some kind of rat. Then yesterday suddenly my body temperature rises and my entire body feels like collapsing. Believe me, that sucks.
Thennn i started panicking around and my mom told me to meet a doctor and I said okay.
After one-and-a-half-hour-waited-endlessly, i went in the doctor's room and bla bla bla. He said that i caught some kind of 'radang tenggorokan' thingy and that's why my body temperature went high. Sob sob. I hate being sick :'(
Now, here I am, on my bed, had no power to wake myself up. And i miss him. So the equation is, sick + missing him = paralyzed. Can't do anything and won't be able to do anything and don't wanna do anything.
'I wanna be the one to hold you tight, the one loves you tenderly anytime, the one stays in your heart and the girl you say 'i love you' to at the right moment.'
Haha. I miss him. Stupid quote isn't it? Yeah i made it myself.
Gonna take some medicine shortly. Tha tha readers. Wish me well soon. I really hate this kind of sickness.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara ♥
First Day of Being a High-School Student
Wow, first busy Monday i've got within this month!
So yeah, today is the thirteenth of July, which means today is the first day of our new academic year! Yay!
(Why does my sentences always ended with exclamation mark? Cos i'm excited :D)
I woke up at about 6.40, after a massive fight with my phone alarm. Cos yeaa, my usual wake up time was 10 o'clock, so have to wake up at about six is considered as a hard task to be done. LOL.
FYI, please put aside those thoughts on your mind thinking that high school means grey skirt and white OSIS top. No no no. Mine weren't those clothes. I'm currently studying at Central School, which is a national plus school so, yeah, no grey skirt :'( there were brown skirts instead.
So today i arrived at school at about 7.25 whichhh is almost late, and i'm almost always late LOL. The bad thing was i had to sit beside the new student, which i've known him before. His name is Alvin, we entered same school before, Notre Dame Primary School. There's also one more newbie, her name is Cynthia (i don't know whether i spelled it correctly or not :p) and yeah she's sweet and friendly. Haha.
First day of school, as you all know is always boring. Talking bout curricullum, syllabus, outside school programmes (which is known as ekskul), rules, regulations bla bla bla. The good thing is....Friday will be a free-clothes day! Horay! Oh yeah not exactly free but, it's polo shirt and jeans-day. That's fair enough :):)
So today's a bit boring, tiring, yet fun. I made you confused? Haha me either.
Guess what i'm gonna do in the next few minutes? Anyone? Yeahh. Continue sleeping! LOL LOL LOL. i'm so sleepy and i don't think i've got enough sleep last night. So yeah, see ya next time readers, ♥ you all.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara :)
So yeah, today is the thirteenth of July, which means today is the first day of our new academic year! Yay!
(Why does my sentences always ended with exclamation mark? Cos i'm excited :D)
I woke up at about 6.40, after a massive fight with my phone alarm. Cos yeaa, my usual wake up time was 10 o'clock, so have to wake up at about six is considered as a hard task to be done. LOL.
FYI, please put aside those thoughts on your mind thinking that high school means grey skirt and white OSIS top. No no no. Mine weren't those clothes. I'm currently studying at Central School, which is a national plus school so, yeah, no grey skirt :'( there were brown skirts instead.
So today i arrived at school at about 7.25 whichhh is almost late, and i'm almost always late LOL. The bad thing was i had to sit beside the new student, which i've known him before. His name is Alvin, we entered same school before, Notre Dame Primary School. There's also one more newbie, her name is Cynthia (i don't know whether i spelled it correctly or not :p) and yeah she's sweet and friendly. Haha.
First day of school, as you all know is always boring. Talking bout curricullum, syllabus, outside school programmes (which is known as ekskul), rules, regulations bla bla bla. The good thing is....Friday will be a free-clothes day! Horay! Oh yeah not exactly free but, it's polo shirt and jeans-day. That's fair enough :):)
So today's a bit boring, tiring, yet fun. I made you confused? Haha me either.
Guess what i'm gonna do in the next few minutes? Anyone? Yeahh. Continue sleeping! LOL LOL LOL. i'm so sleepy and i don't think i've got enough sleep last night. So yeah, see ya next time readers, ♥ you all.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara :)
The Worst Day of My Life
FYI, i'm blogging from my blackberry instead of laptop. Why? Cos internet modems nowadays suck. What the hell does it mean by 'address not found' when my signal is full and HSDPA?
Okay enough modem talking. I woke up with agonising sadness bursted out of my heart. I dreamt about something bad. I considered it as 'really really bad'. I can't tell you what was the dream specifically, but in conclusion, someone i loved left me in my dream. I couldn't help but crying. I cried like crazy when I woke up. Okay i know i'm stupid. I know. But you don't know how it feels. It's like, it seemed so real! :'( And my bad day didn't stop right there. After a while and after i catched a breath, i went downstairs going for food. And guess what? Yeah. I vomitted all my food i've eaten. Horay that was cool and I feel really sick now. Anyone please help.
I think i need to go to bathroom again.
ThaTha readers. Wish me luck for the rest of my day. I feel like vomitting *yuck*.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara :)
Okay enough modem talking. I woke up with agonising sadness bursted out of my heart. I dreamt about something bad. I considered it as 'really really bad'. I can't tell you what was the dream specifically, but in conclusion, someone i loved left me in my dream. I couldn't help but crying. I cried like crazy when I woke up. Okay i know i'm stupid. I know. But you don't know how it feels. It's like, it seemed so real! :'( And my bad day didn't stop right there. After a while and after i catched a breath, i went downstairs going for food. And guess what? Yeah. I vomitted all my food i've eaten. Horay that was cool and I feel really sick now. Anyone please help.
I think i need to go to bathroom again.
ThaTha readers. Wish me luck for the rest of my day. I feel like vomitting *yuck*.
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara :)
I'm Superduper Bored. So this is what i did. And yeah this is damn long.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Fell down and what left is only the scar :(
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Nothing..plain pink paintings.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
No, no, sometimes :)
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Like, RnB, Pop, and sometimes (really sometimessss) Jazz xD
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
about 2a.m, i don't know when the accurate one is
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Changing my curve into bold, and yeah for whoever reading this and wanna spend some money on blackberry, don't ever buy curves. ANY TYPE.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Him :(
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My Blackberry, prized enough?
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
Like 162 cm.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Nope.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yeah!
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Myself. Cos i keep blaming myself.
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Many things. No worst. All of them are the worsts.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Anything he had ;)
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING / BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
Hey, i'm fourteen. Lol.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Starbucks? But i don't drink coffee, it leaves our mouth such a bad smell
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Salami and Cheese.
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Burger King's Chicken Deluxe. Yum.
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
I love pink mostly :) Light blue, purple, are additional ones.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No and will never.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
I forgot.
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
I have a loved one. xD
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I don't even know what does it mean by that. Lol.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Zara.
25. WHO IS THE HOTTEST FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
Jessica Alba and still, Brad Pitt :D
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Uh-uh no.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
-
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
That's exactly what i'm going through right now.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
Nine?
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Mmm USA isn't my hometown :) So yes, i'm out of the USA almost the entire time.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Inconsistent.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yeahs.
37. FIRST JOB?
Again, I'm fourteen!
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Nay
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Yeah. But maybe it depends on conditions too.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Listening to radio.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Not that i'm aware of
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
'Kamu cantik' but i always believed that itu cuma basa basi
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Nope :D
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Laptop. Money.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Two, or maybe none. No one knows.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes, my grandfather.
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Their ego.
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU MISS ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
I'm about entering high school.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Loreal Red.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
NOOOOO.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Any kind is okay.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Many of them.
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yeahs.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Maybe no. I'm not that famous or whatever.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
Yes xD
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yes, anyone saying that look doesn't matter is somehow lying.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I buried them usually. Till my tears released it.
59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
Being happy with the people i loved the most.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Many things.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Many of them.
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
No, I'm a fan now anyway. lol.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeahs a lot
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mac n Cheese. One of my fav food of all time.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Looks, honesty, characters.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NAMES?
Agatha Tara Indira
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Oprah Winrey (kewl!), Are You Smarter Than a Fifth Grader?
69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Ignore.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Cookies n Cream.
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes.
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
No.
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Sleep?
74. WHAT'S THE FASTEST YOU'VE EVER GONE IN A CAR?
Don't know.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
It's up to them.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Gigi - My Facebook
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Mineral Water.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Hehe.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
The way he talks and eyes.
80. WHAT DO U LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Online, reading, anything fun, eating.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Cockroaches. Go to hell.
82. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
September. Simply my birthday is the best. Andddd sth else ;)
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Any type, I always loved candies.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
No. :'(
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Originally Black. I dyed it into Golden Mocca. Now it's kinda like Goldish Brown.
86. EYE COLOR?
Dark Brown.
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Burger King.
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Many.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Love them.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
24 Season 4.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
My birthday.
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Piano, a bit of it.
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Democrat.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Both
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Gladiator Sandals.
98. DO YOU HAVE A LOW SELF ESTEEM OR A HIGH SELF ESTEEM?
In between.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Nothing at the time.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Complicated yet interesting.
Fell down and what left is only the scar :(
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Nothing..plain pink paintings.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
No, no, sometimes :)
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Like, RnB, Pop, and sometimes (really sometimessss) Jazz xD
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
about 2a.m, i don't know when the accurate one is
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Changing my curve into bold, and yeah for whoever reading this and wanna spend some money on blackberry, don't ever buy curves. ANY TYPE.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Him :(
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My Blackberry, prized enough?
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
Like 162 cm.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Nope.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yeah!
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Myself. Cos i keep blaming myself.
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Many things. No worst. All of them are the worsts.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Anything he had ;)
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING / BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
Hey, i'm fourteen. Lol.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Starbucks? But i don't drink coffee, it leaves our mouth such a bad smell
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Salami and Cheese.
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Burger King's Chicken Deluxe. Yum.
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
I love pink mostly :) Light blue, purple, are additional ones.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No and will never.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
I forgot.
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
I have a loved one. xD
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I don't even know what does it mean by that. Lol.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Zara.
25. WHO IS THE HOTTEST FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
Jessica Alba and still, Brad Pitt :D
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Uh-uh no.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
-
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
That's exactly what i'm going through right now.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
Nine?
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Mmm USA isn't my hometown :) So yes, i'm out of the USA almost the entire time.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Inconsistent.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yeahs.
37. FIRST JOB?
Again, I'm fourteen!
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Nay
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Yeah. But maybe it depends on conditions too.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Listening to radio.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Not that i'm aware of
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
'Kamu cantik' but i always believed that itu cuma basa basi
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Nope :D
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Laptop. Money.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Two, or maybe none. No one knows.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes, my grandfather.
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Their ego.
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU MISS ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
I'm about entering high school.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Loreal Red.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
NOOOOO.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Any kind is okay.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Many of them.
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yeahs.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Maybe no. I'm not that famous or whatever.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
Yes xD
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yes, anyone saying that look doesn't matter is somehow lying.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I buried them usually. Till my tears released it.
59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
Being happy with the people i loved the most.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Many things.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Many of them.
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
No, I'm a fan now anyway. lol.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeahs a lot
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mac n Cheese. One of my fav food of all time.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Looks, honesty, characters.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NAMES?
Agatha Tara Indira
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Oprah Winrey (kewl!), Are You Smarter Than a Fifth Grader?
69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Ignore.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Cookies n Cream.
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes.
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
No.
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Sleep?
74. WHAT'S THE FASTEST YOU'VE EVER GONE IN A CAR?
Don't know.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
It's up to them.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Gigi - My Facebook
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Mineral Water.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Hehe.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
The way he talks and eyes.
80. WHAT DO U LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Online, reading, anything fun, eating.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Cockroaches. Go to hell.
82. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
September. Simply my birthday is the best. Andddd sth else ;)
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Any type, I always loved candies.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
No. :'(
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Originally Black. I dyed it into Golden Mocca. Now it's kinda like Goldish Brown.
86. EYE COLOR?
Dark Brown.
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Burger King.
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Many.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Love them.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
24 Season 4.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
My birthday.
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Piano, a bit of it.
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Democrat.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Both
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Gladiator Sandals.
98. DO YOU HAVE A LOW SELF ESTEEM OR A HIGH SELF ESTEEM?
In between.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Nothing at the time.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Complicated yet interesting.
Another Boring Day
Hello readers :)
What i'm about to tell is nothing important so if you wanna go to bathroom go now xDxD lol.
Haha. Today is again considered as my boring and useless day. Are all holidays the same? Woke up at ten, morning bath at 3, lunch at 4 and so on? If that's true so i'll tell you now that going to school is much more fun than a prototype holiday like this -_-
Mind if i tell you what did i do today? Males banget ga sih isi blog gini gini doang? Haha yeah. Soo today i woke up at about half to ten, stayed on my bed until like 10 o'clock and began searching for mornng food downstairs. Then i realized that my parents weren't at home. Yeah how dumb was me. I must've realized that earlier. This is Saturday and as always they're going for those seminar stuffs. Ah, relax. I'm gonna meet them tonight though. Maybe at 9 o'clock.
Hmm i'm not going to talk about them because it'll only make me feel down.
Haha i'll skip that part then. So I had my brunch at about 11 and went straight to my brother's bed. Again to bed??? Yeah :D:D I'm proud of my sleeping skill LOL
After that I remembered to continue watching 24 season 4. So I watched it until like 3 o'clock and fell asleep (AGAIN??) until five and continued watching it until eight. My Gawd. Doesn't boredom really kick?
Enough of nonsense talk. Haha. Gonna fix my internet connection soon. It's all crappy. It's like i'm waiting for 15 minutes for opening my facebook profile and guess what showed up? PAGE NOT FOUND. YEAH. PAGE NOT FOUND. RRAWRR.
Alrite, i'm done here. TTYL Bloggers and readers. Hava good night. :)
What i'm about to tell is nothing important so if you wanna go to bathroom go now xDxD lol.
Haha. Today is again considered as my boring and useless day. Are all holidays the same? Woke up at ten, morning bath at 3, lunch at 4 and so on? If that's true so i'll tell you now that going to school is much more fun than a prototype holiday like this -_-
Mind if i tell you what did i do today? Males banget ga sih isi blog gini gini doang? Haha yeah. Soo today i woke up at about half to ten, stayed on my bed until like 10 o'clock and began searching for mornng food downstairs. Then i realized that my parents weren't at home. Yeah how dumb was me. I must've realized that earlier. This is Saturday and as always they're going for those seminar stuffs. Ah, relax. I'm gonna meet them tonight though. Maybe at 9 o'clock.
Hmm i'm not going to talk about them because it'll only make me feel down.
Haha i'll skip that part then. So I had my brunch at about 11 and went straight to my brother's bed. Again to bed??? Yeah :D:D I'm proud of my sleeping skill LOL
After that I remembered to continue watching 24 season 4. So I watched it until like 3 o'clock and fell asleep (AGAIN??) until five and continued watching it until eight. My Gawd. Doesn't boredom really kick?
Enough of nonsense talk. Haha. Gonna fix my internet connection soon. It's all crappy. It's like i'm waiting for 15 minutes for opening my facebook profile and guess what showed up? PAGE NOT FOUND. YEAH. PAGE NOT FOUND. RRAWRR.
Alrite, i'm done here. TTYL Bloggers and readers. Hava good night. :)
Capek ama Blogspot.
Ga ada yg berhasil satupun. Capek ah. Kalo ini ga berhasil juga, Im gonna delete my account.
Reflection of Me Recently
Hello again bloggers or whoever reading this :)
Today wasn't good. You wanna know what's waking me up this morning? Yes, clever, that's right. My scheduled STOMACHACHE that comes every month graaaaah. I mean, why women have to experience that period thingy? Oh cmon. Men are stronger aren't they.
So this morning i woke up at 9 a.m after having a sleep like 12 hours. That could be considered as WOW. Then blablabla, having my breakfast then watching 24 until 2 p.m. LOL i took my morning bath at 2.30 today! Hooray! :D Then then then, i rushed bathing and messing up my wardrobe like crazy searching for matching clothes ;) Then again I rushed going to Puri Mall.
I watched King today. That movie is one of the best Indonesian movie I've ever watched. And yeahs I kept disturbing my friend by saying, 'Kok Susi Susantinya gak ada? Kenapa? Kenapa?' LOL. Then you know what you know what? That damn stomachace came. Again. PLEASE STOPPPPP :'(
So yes, now here I am, in front of my laptop, no no, my mom's laptop, updating twitter status and trying some new apps on facebook. Boring huh?
But despite the pain I had today bcos of my period, I'm happy :)
Ask why?
Hahahahaa. I'm not telling! Na na na na na! *very big grin*
Anyway, gotta go for something else.
Bye everyone, thanks for reading :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
Today wasn't good. You wanna know what's waking me up this morning? Yes, clever, that's right. My scheduled STOMACHACHE that comes every month graaaaah. I mean, why women have to experience that period thingy? Oh cmon. Men are stronger aren't they.
So this morning i woke up at 9 a.m after having a sleep like 12 hours. That could be considered as WOW. Then blablabla, having my breakfast then watching 24 until 2 p.m. LOL i took my morning bath at 2.30 today! Hooray! :D Then then then, i rushed bathing and messing up my wardrobe like crazy searching for matching clothes ;) Then again I rushed going to Puri Mall.
I watched King today. That movie is one of the best Indonesian movie I've ever watched. And yeahs I kept disturbing my friend by saying, 'Kok Susi Susantinya gak ada? Kenapa? Kenapa?' LOL. Then you know what you know what? That damn stomachace came. Again. PLEASE STOPPPPP :'(
So yes, now here I am, in front of my laptop, no no, my mom's laptop, updating twitter status and trying some new apps on facebook. Boring huh?
But despite the pain I had today bcos of my period, I'm happy :)
Ask why?
Hahahahaa. I'm not telling! Na na na na na! *very big grin*
Anyway, gotta go for something else.
Bye everyone, thanks for reading :)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
My Very First Post.
Hello Dearest Bloggers :)
This is officially my first post. Maybe you're wondering why now. Why am i making my blog account so very late by this time. Oh yes obviously i'm not one of those internet maniacs who could update their blog like almost everyday. So, yes, don't be bored reading my amateur kind of blogging type :):)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara
This is officially my first post. Maybe you're wondering why now. Why am i making my blog account so very late by this time. Oh yes obviously i'm not one of those internet maniacs who could update their blog like almost everyday. So, yes, don't be bored reading my amateur kind of blogging type :):)
Smoochies,
Agatha Tara