The Journey of Mine, Revealed

if it ain't sweet, don't tweet.

hi, hellooooo
it's been long since the last time i write.

anyways, the title above shows my addiction to a site that is being used widely around the world, i quoted that from a well-known Kahitna singer, Mario Ginanjar.
www.twitter.com/agathatara
follow me if you don't mind.

and yes, i am now officially leaving central school and going to attend my first day of being an eleven-grader at bina bangsa in less than two weeks :(
if you ask, yes, i extremely wanted to stay in central much longer.

next, how was life for me recently?
really? you want me to sum it up in a word? alright then.
MESSY. yes, messy. not Lionel Messi, that outstanding soccer player. blah, am i even saying a cheesy joke there?

1. my stomach sucks. this is horrific. it's not even weird now for me to get a diarrhea twice or thrice a month. yep,really, my stomach problem is THAT bad.
eating a bit more chilli than i am supposed to, i can guarantee that i'll be awaken at 2 o'clock the night after and going ten times back and forth to the toilet with agony.

2. i hate KUMON more than ever. i don't care if mom said to double my allowance if i graduated from kumon in a short time. i mean, who won't do anything if they are gonna get twice their allowance after? ME. hearing my brother mumbling about his kumon homework make me wanna vomit on my own kumon homework. why? wanna know why? because it's been 10 YEARS for me dealing with the homework EVERY SINGLE DAY.

3. someone has kicked me out from my sweetest dream. yes, thanks a lot for that single line of words that FINALLY could make me come to realization. i wasn't meant for you, and i never will. if that is so, i am letting you go with all my heart. maybe it's hard to move on, but i believe it's harder for me to wait and seeing you happy..not with me.

but after all, we have to keep thanking God for our lives right?
so that's exactly what i'm gonna do right now.
Hi, Dad. Thanks for everything you've given me till now. I'm sorry if most of the times i want more and more that i probably should be having. Forgive us humans, will You? :)

hehehe. i might have been exaggerating the whole time, but no, this time, what i have written above are truly the simplest words to describe my condition right now :)

sorry for the lacking of update, despite the fact that no one maybe reading my blog all over.

toodles :D

pictures of mine

love does not boast love is not proud.

haiiiiii. sekalinya kepengen banget ngeblog malah ga tau mau tulis apaan. seriusan deh, kemaren itu gw uda bela2in online dr laptop buat buka blogger. uda klik compose new post. terus tau ga apa yg terjadi? gw duduk ngeliatin layar 15 menit tanpa tau apa yg mau ditulis.
hopeless, akhirnya ga jadi nulis deh hweeee :(

anyway, hr ini sebenernya gw super sebel ama orang2 yg ga tau diri, tp udalah, harus ttp senyum :)
hr ini wedding daynya kak Rensi ama ko Errol. hehe congrats yah kak! semoga langgeng sampe waktu memisahkan. nih ada fotonya sih, tapi gwnya super kecil diblakang karena uda super ga niat foto. tadi uda bad mood parah banget disana, ahh gw bahkan ga bisa ngontrol emosi sendiri. sebel!

left to right, backline - frontline: daddy, mami, om Budi, kak steffy, me, ko michael, priscy, mama popo - kak meicy, kak rensi & ko errol, adit.


gilaaaa, liat foto itu gw bener2 mikirin masi pengen ketemu shasha cantikkkk. shasha itu sepupu gw, belom umur setaon dan gw super sayang ama dia :(
sayangnya dia tinggal di majenang which is our hometown, and we couldn't meet that often.
hais padahal gw uda super berharap bs ketemu shasha hr ini, tp ternyata dia ga diajak karena takut cape dibawa ke wedding ceremony kyk gini.

ah sha, cc kangeen ciumin kamu loh! :3
tapi ya udah deh yah, berharep aja deh june dia dateng lagi trus nginep deh seminggu dirumah kyk waktu itu, ah super surga deh kalo ada dia ama farrel (kokonya) dirumah.
gw kyk dapet semangat baru buat jadi hepi setiap hari!
ga lebay deh, kalo ada mereka dirumah tuh gw bawaannya senenggggg bangettttt :)

hehe anyway, did some webcam-photoshooting at school in the last two days ;p
ini gara2 tara el yg memanipulasi otak kita semua untuk ngeskip mandarin dan music buat foto2 (nyalahin orang ;p)









hehe asik banget loh sekolahnya kalo tiap hari foto2 gini.
ya ampun, gw bener2 ga pengen ninggalin central sekarang :(
ga mau pisah ama anak2 kelas 10 yg super gokil, ga mau pisah ama mr wayne, ga mau pisah ama mie ayam 8000, ga mau pisah ama mr richard :(
hwe, tapi life must go on, mustn't it?


mr richarddd :(

ms adellaaaa :(

ms selviiiiiii :(


matilah makin sedih deh bikin post kyk gini!!! :((((((((

i wish my life was afterall a tv show, i could then press rewind and pause at anytime i liked!

sayang temen temen, sayang guru guru semua. sayang central! <3

udah dulu deh, bener2 jadi sedih banget sekarang. away nangis dulu yaaaa *sob sob*
;p;p

dadahhhhhhhhhhh hihi

Science without Religion is Lame

Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind - Albert Einstein

EPIC true.

gw benci banget sama orang yang nganggep semuanya bisa diselesain pake doa.
"kan gw ke gereja tiap minggu, daripada elu, pinter tapi ke gereja bolong2."

ada yang punya wedges 15 centi ga?
PENGEN GW TIMPUK ITU ORANG.

lu ke gereja tiap minggu? ato tiap hari? sehari 2 kali?
NONSENSE.
apa gunanya woy itu semua. bahkan kerjaan lu cuman ngebacotin orang dan ceng cengin orang, bahkan ngata2in.

ke gereja ngapain? ngaku dosa doang? berharep semua dosa diampunin terus dapet A* di tiap ujian?
HAHAHAHAHAHA, ketawa yukkkkkkk

serius yah, uda super cape ngeladenin orang2 macem gitu.
jujur, gw emang jarang banget ke gereja.
tapi tiap malem gw usahain rutin berdoa, gw belajar kalo ada test, gw jarang2 ngatain orang ampe pake bahasa binatang.

sorry ya, tapi menurut gw, status gw yang kyk gini jauh lebi bagus drpd lu.

so, stop bangga2in diri sendiri ok?

haaaah, ya ampun bbrp hari ini kok gw kerjaannya marah2 mulu yah?

anyway, hari ini gw sakit, jadi absen sekolahnya.
padahal senen pelajarannya enak2, dan gara2 absen harus susulan test business juga besok. huuuu ga suka susulan ah :(

ya Tuhan ini bener2 deh gw belom kepikiran apa2 buat preface yearbook :(
jam berapa nih? 19.15??
tadi sih pagi2 berharap kalo mualnya udah rada reda mau isi waktu luang baca2 buku ato ngerjain preface.

tapi biasa lah, tau gw malesnya ampun2 :(
dr pagi ampe sore tadi kerjaan gw cuman maen Monopoly World Edition di iTouch ampe geblek. bener2 gw ulang terus ampe 10 sesi! gilaaaa aduh gimana ini, makin lama kok makin males? :o

oh iya, project yearbook kali ini bener2 nyita waktu dan pikiran deh pokoknya.
tapi setelah liat draftsnya, WAAAAAAAAAAA semangat tiba2 muncul lagi!
menurut gw halaman per halamannya itu keren banget, sumpah ya, nyesel kalo ada yang ga beli yearbook taun ini!
:)

IGCSE udah di depan mata, tapi gw bener2 belom nyicil apapun ya ampun :(
gimana dong? abisnya tiap kali niat mau belajar, eh ada aja yang distract dan akhirnya ga jadi belajar deh. ah payah, harus lebih semangat nihhhh


udah mau 1/2 8 nih, tapi bener2 blank total gimana bikin prefacenya, bahkan formatnya pun ga kepikiran sama sekali.

kepala masih pusing, perut masih sakit. tapi ga boleh manja kan? :)

hehe udah ah. harus bener2 coba ngerjain prefacenya sekarang!

entar deh kalo yearbooknya udah naik cetak, dipublish di blog dehhh
hehe byeeee

mari menulis dalam bahasa indonesia

terinspirasi dari salah satu blog temen gw, dipikir' ga ada ruginya nulis dalem bahasa indo aja, walau gimanapun kan kita WNI juga.

apa ya?
bingung gimana awalnya, kyknya gampangan pake inggris deh hahaha :)

anyways, liat dari status fb, twitter, ym, msn orang' kok kayaknya lg pada stress semua.
statusnya mellow' semua, yg ini nyindir diri sendiri juga sih
entah kenapa deh beberapa minggu ini ada yg beda, ada yg narik gw keluar dr lingkaran pola hidup gw selama ini.

yg biasanya super duper bawel, skrg mungkin gw malah lebih memilih untuk diem, in some cases.
ga ngerti deh ini PMS ato bukan. tp most likely sih bukan PMS, gw cuman uda super jenuh sama rutinitas yang itu ituuuuuu aja.

ga ngerti gimana ngehindarinnya, 3 paper dalam sehari, homework, les di daerah lebak bulus, dilarang makan gorengan dan es SEUMUR HIDUP (mungkin gak?), rasa yang makin lama makin aneh gw rasain.

mungkin gw cuma capek, iyaaaa, cuma capek aja. berusaha positive thinking. gw bisa, bisa, bisa.

MOCK exam baru aja selesai, which left me a great pressure on my back. and i have to carry it alone. no one, i repeat, no one is in favour to share my problems with.

tau gakkk sihhhhh gw capek? tau? tau?
capeknya tuh beda ya sama capek abis rpm 1 jam penuh, abis ikut aerobic class di CF, ato ngangkat' koran bekas dan kardus bekas dan majalah bekas kyk yg dulu gw lakuin ama temen' gw.
ini lebih towards to..capek batin. kecapean fisik yg lama' menjurus ke batin.

tau ga rasanya berharap sama orang, tapi tau bahwa harapan itu kosang? vacuum? nol? zero?
mungkin sebagian besar ngerti, tp ga exactly what i am feeling right now.
ya ampunnnnnnnnn, ini tuh harus gimana sih?

gw berusaha buat ga terlalu shallow dalam berpikir. gw mau mentingin orang lain dulu drpd gw. gw ga akan ngata'in orang diblakang, KECUALI, mereka yang mulai.
gw berusaha banget buat jadi yang terbaik buat semuanya.
tapi apa dong yang gw panen?
as you sow, you will reap. tp kok gw sownya hal' yg (menurut gw) baik, tp reapnya malah sesuatu yg menurut gw ga enak banget sih?

siapa dong siniiiii yg mau peduli sama gw? HAHA, super ngarep ih. mana ada coba?

ga ngerti deh yg bener yg mana :(
tp gw ngerasa banget kok gw lg menarik diri dari semuanya. dr pergaulan. dr pertemanan. dari kesenangan sesaat. hmm, mgkn gw masi berharap sama 1 orang ini buat perhatian sama gw. you might not notice who you are. in case you're slightly insensitive..

hehe enak juga ya numpahin segala macem perasaan ke blog pake bahasa indo?
lain kali gini lagi ah.

i dont know how much longer i can wait. i am waiting for you to contact me first.

dunia mulai gila deh kyknya, ups, dunia gw maksudnya.

uda ah cape, jam 10.45, nunggu juga buat apa. LAGIAN NUNGGU APA SIH? nunggu ngantuk aja deeeeeeee
tapi tau bahwa ga akan ngantuk.

dah ah, byebye
:(

one two three and go!

hello hello hello <3

how's life?

mine's been tough tho..

been very very busy organizing things for the upcoming pilot project "Yearbook" with Jennifer.
making questionnaires, signing proposals, collecting data, etc etc

and i really hate this CERTAIN PERSON who failed me not to be on a really bad mood back then
i was for heaven's sake not feeling well and you scolded me like that OH GEE GET A LIFE PLEASE

you see the night after i went to hospitals and the doctor said i was having a bad fever and cold.
see, in a situation like that you still bother to distract me in every way you could

i wouldnt mention names cos u know who u are and please go get some life

but anyway, i am happy that the yearbook project is 80% done..still need some data to be collected soon.

sigh..hard days..hard days..

but its okay tho, at least i still have you, right? :)
gotta be stronger than yesterday.
i miss u much dear


byebyeeee :)

Hectic Days!

yep. as you can see as my main heading, i am experiencing a really hectic days these few weeks.

yearbook thingy, Chinese festival stuffs, homeworks (thanks to ms. agustine for giving us those 8-page-homework to be done in a week --'), tests, IGCSE past papers, courses, singing stuffs OHMYGOODGOD this much??

been a while since the last time i enjoyed my free time.
i miss sleeping, GAH!

hmm at least i still have my family and friends and him who helped me a lot overcoming by frustration and those maydays :) i love you all hehe

haven't been in a really fit condition these days, remembering last Tuesday when i went home early from school since my head aches lots like i mean seriously and my stomach hurt like hell.
haha yeah that day i pooped for more than 8 times for a day. imagine that? i lost one and a half kilos for only a day.
unhealthy i knew it, but it was just one unlucky day when my body didn't compromise any longer.

the day after tomorrow will be a BIG day.
it's the Chinese Festival day and the school is inviting lots of other institutions and i am in their list of committees.
excited yet nervous, happy yet tiring.

hmm maybe after the twenty-fifth, i will do a full hibernation for a day. HAHA:D

ah ah ah and i miss you a lot, dear :(
feels like hugging you and get some recharge for myself ;p
hope i can meet you afterwards hihi <3

oh yep please pray for me so that i could do my tasks without any obstacles
thanks byebye i love you all :)


Agatha Tara

got myself tied up in an awkward situation these days :(

yeah the title tells all.

got no mood for doing further writing as i am in my worst condition.

sorry for the bad type of update.


Love,

Agatha Tara

it's almost 2010, isn't it ?

hello.
i'm supposed to be happy at this moment, but in fact, i'm not :(

yes. too many complicated things are going on at the same time.
however, it makes my head experiencing a total headache.

going to Singapore less than a day for a holiday trip with my family for not more than a week.
gotta shop much there as my friend told me that Singapore is on its big sale right now :)

ha-ha i know. i'm a MASSIVE spender :p
sorry mum, your spoiled daughter is on her passion to shop!

missing him much at this very moment :(
haven't met him for a really long time and it is unhealthy for me why?
because i daydream a lot beacuse of it :'(

less than three days till new year and i still haven't made any new year resolution for myself.

me: so lazy. darn lazy i knew it.

okay so now let's start with those typical resolutions first.
1. better me.
2. better communication skills with everyone out there.
3. better skill in controlling my anger and madness.
4. new life, a better one.

there are also some detailed resolutions i'm gonna make.
1. i want to pass IGCSE exams with straight As. lol. this one seems so naive, though :p
2. i want my friends to get along with me better so that no fight will take place among us.
3. the most important one is i want him to be by my side as long as possible. as long as the time separates us :)

well i think those are the complete overview of my resolutions.
what are yours, dear? :)


Smooches,

Agatha Tara

december, i am MADLY in love!

OHMYFREAKINGFAIRIES!

i am sooooo loving yesterday !!!! it was totally a blast and i had a really great time with all of them :):)

yesterday was the day for the charity night of the Maria Monique Foundation in cooperation with Central School.

we were performing a traditional dance, some choir and singing, and also ensemble / orchestra.

so yes, we have been preparing for last night for about approximately three months of hard work and it turned out superb!

indeed, i have been missing all of our togetherness yesterday :(

one day felt terribly short but i was really amazed by the show especially the KG-2 performance (Ella May <3<3) and the piano playing of Raymond KK and Jojo. they played so well in the song The Flight of the Bumblebee, which actually, one of my favorite songs to be played by a pianist :)

great job everyone! and i love being with all of you yesterday :)


:D:D


i am now really really happy despite the fact that I've been missing him real bad :(

sigh God, if only i could wish for a thing it surely would be a chance of meeting him right now.

but well, it doesn't really matter because i could call him anytime which might slightly help reducing my awkward feeling ><

i love you so much and that's all the reason i've got to be with you.

I LOVE DECEMBER SO MUCH i hope that this passion could last forever :)

i love you, all my great friends :) i wish i could stay in Central little longer.

surely going to miss all of you when i leave six months from now.

being with all of you has reached the top level of my wants' hierarchy right now, unintentionally.


Love love hugs hugs,

Agatha Tara :)



Me Likey.

A song that really makes me falling in love over and over again.

You guys should be aware of the awesome lyrics :)

You - Christian Bautista

You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.

You pushed me up
When I’m about to give up;
You’re on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can’t help but show
You’ll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.

‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me

You pushed me up
When I’m about to give up;
You’re on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can’t help but show
You’ll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It’s your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I’m with you through all the way.

‘Cause it’s you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev’rything, you see,
When I know I’ve got you with me.

Yeah i know this is meaningless as words can't simply describe the sound of music.

I'm quite sure that you all will be addicted at the time you listen to it :)

Sorry for the late update and i know this will not be enough for a real update as i am now doing my exam :(

I promise i will blog as soon as i finish everything :)


Smoochies,

Agatha Tara